Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Christmas Card............

Why did he send me a christmas card and a note.......when I broke it off from the Narcisisst five months ago?  Because he is possibly getting bored with the new victim and has a desire to fill his needs ....VERY SAD....D!!!!!  You see...I now understand who you are and  how you operate...While you were married you were never home....Where wee you and what would be more important than taking care of your wife who was struggling with cancer??  Who is more important than your wife???

So you meet other woman...then you get angry...then you explode and objectify them and need other fulfillment.  Where is God in all of this?  Why do you not turn to Him and His word to honor Him first and all priorities will fall into place.  Love the Lord your 'god with all your heart....Honor your wife.....this means faithfulness to Him and her......

You had an episode with the new victim and now your reaching out for MOI...Not genuine...just selfish and dishonest....and dishonoring to God and the new woman your with!!!!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE

Freedom...Peace...My Person is coming back.....

It has been five months since I said NO MORE....No more control....belittling.....disregard.....manipulation.....
The interesting thing is that he has sent me several cards and I burn them...b/c of what I have learned since breaking it off from him.

First,  I have a beautiful new found sense of freedom in just being me....I no longer question what I am wearing....or need to be home by 10:30.....no more interrogations of where I was and were there any men at the seminar....or messages of how he was wondering if I was socializing with people HE didn't know......all sounds so very bizarre to me now....I was being brain washed and did not even recognize it!

Also...I have learned alot about these kind of men....their deep insecurities cause them to constantly be on the look out for other woman to fulfill their void of self esteem and to satisfy their narcissism.  This is what I witnessed with ...we'll call him Dan!  I have taken time to observe men and their patterns with this issue.  Men will glance and that is to be expected but cheaters stare. 

I realize that one should trust their intuition on this topic...ladies....Trust your instinct!  When you see patterns of anger, quick attachment, marriage discussion within 3/4 months(I am serious!!!)


RUN.................................RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!